so today...definetely not lyk any other day. TRUST ME when i say that. well to me it wasnt... worst 1st day bk in sch ever...

i find it very sickening. VERY!!! so today was 100m and 4x 100m heats. so miss lim didnt allow trackers to join any events tht day clash or not clashing with out training. den they change to all except throwers cnt. den change to all cnt. den lyk wen we were eating lunch krystal got a call from someone tht we can actually go and run. cuz i was eating i came down late la.. den they got a replacement. alicia ran for me and she didnt get into the finals. den is lyk i was so sad la. NOT BLAMING ANYTHING ON ALICIA!! bt im lyk so pissed off cuz they got me a relpacement wen i could have juz done the make up.. den off course i was lyk so sad la. cuz lyk this time i really wanted to run den cannot. den being the person i am, i cried. i mean i really didnt know wad to do. worst still couldnt run 4 by 100 also.

den wo hao bu rong yi get over it already during training...juz tink of it as wad has passed can nvr return la. juz accept it. no point brooding over it. den... at the end of trng, something bad happened. cuz they also got a replacement for hanyu den is lyk tht person got 5th she also go and tok to miss lim la. den i also went to talk to miss lim. i said tht if the replacement didnt get in the finals i cnt run the finals den she was lyk ya.. den i told amanda lau and hanyu cuz they also wanted to knw wad they said... den is lyk wen miss lim was talking to them,

she suddenly turn and look at me saying tht wad the rules say tht if the heats clash with the competitions or wadever she can make a make-up session for us. den i was lyk gving the ok look. den all of a sudden she was lyk so u going to appeal ah in tht sacarstic tone of hers den is lyk she kept repeating it... of cause i wasnt lyk going to cry den... den she was lyk wad i was going to cry or smting lyk last yr cuz of the stupid 200m ting.den i really was lyk tearing up. den she say tht how can her track gals or wadever be so weak... thts wen i broke down la... i juz turn away den i started crying... u knw wad tinking of i now i tink im going to cry la. u may think i cry alot bt thts who i am. i know i am very weak. but plz dont put me down for it. for one its very demoralising. but i mean seriously, i know i am very sensetive. dun have to rub it in. den she also say that wad the rules on the board and everything den its the track caps fault tht she didnt ead properly...haiz...

really dun knw wad to do la... only got 200m left. dun knw wad my parents wld say...i hvnt even tried telling them la...haiz...its kinda unfiar. bt life IS UNFAIR. no point blaming it on others. NO POINT. cuz the end result is going to be the same.. juz got to chiong for 200m lor.no choice... haiz...

bt the funny thing is i really wonder la... the relays for sec 2..haha!!! its going to be a fun time watching on sports day... cuz all the team 1's got dq den green and yellow team 2 also dq. lol.. and its lyk 100m all those non-track runners run. 4 by 400m this wed also dun knw wad happen la! haha. den tmr i dun have to go for the heats.

yes!!! cuz i hvnt even started studying on science yet la! and its lyk on wed... haiz... u knw wad... i juz feel lyk not taking part in sports day at all next yr la. save all the tears... save all the energy. its not important anyway.

sph relays here we come. bad thing is i heard liang wei's timing is lyk 12.9 now. CRAZY!!! haiz...i tink mine is lyk 14+ seconds...ok... DOOMED. oh well...nth else i can do. haiz...

i tink i should end here. my post is kinda long already...bye!!! :(